My Mind Runs

I am lost. I am here but I am not. What is here? I am lost in my mind. My mind is always going like a forever going windmill and I can’t stop the natural chemicals going on in my body. I’ll never be found I just want the answers to the test of life. But do I really want the answers? Do I really want to cheat life? All of the chemicals in my body that makes up every emotion I have and every feeling I have. Why can’t I control this? Its my body right I should be able to do that right? But my body is pre programmed to do this by itself. What if i had to think about every little thing I do down to the muscle contraction to the millions of nervous receptors in my body. I am just a living electrical system. I am like a battery. I am here but I am not. I am lost...